New Perspectives
on Ivor Gurney’s Mental Illness
© by Pamela Blevins
Many of the behavioral patterns that characterized
poet-composer Ivor Gurney were already set in place when he was a child.
Looking back through the corridors of time, Gurney struggled to understand
experiences that marked his development by writing about them repeatedly
when he had little else to do during his 15-year incarceration in a
London asylum. Cut off from social intercourse, his friends, music,
nature, freedom, and everything that he loved, Gurney retreated into
the world of words. They became his salvation, his one link with the
remembered world outside the four grey walls that imprisoned his mind
and his body.
In his poem, "What’s in Time", written
when memory brought forth an unbroken flow of truthfulness and clarity
about his past, he describes his "strange coming to personality",
"the mother leaving", the "insurrection and desire to
be one’s own and free", "The birth of creation in the heart,
the touch of poetry", and the "raining steel and furious red
fire" of war.(1)
These memories hint at only a fraction of the complex
circumstances, behavioral traits, hereditary factors and events that
shaped Gurney’s life and finally led him to waste away from an untreated,
misdiagnosed and misunderstood mental illness that slowly consumed his
genius.
Gurney once told his friend Marion Scott that so
long as he was in the asylum, he looked upon himself as being one dead.
"To spend days, months, years oppressed by delusions and physical
pain; to be always in the same range of rooms and garden, cut off by
locked doors from the rest of the world -- that was Gurney’s lot,"
Scott recalled. (2)
As a child and young teenager growing up in his
native Gloucester, where he was born in 1890, Gurney was driven by chaotic
forces, both internal and external, that spun him through cycles of
moods and behavioral patterns that are recognized today as symptomatic
of bi-polar or manic-depressive illness.(3) Yet for more than two decades
Gurney has been regarded as a "paranoid schizophrenic", an
incorrect diagnosis that has limited understanding of both the man and
his art. The nature of Gurney’s illness is vitally important because
the behavioral patterns of the bi-polar victims and the schizophrenic
are markedly different even though they share some symptoms in common,
particularly delusional episodes.
In his groundbreaking 1978 biography The Ordeal
of Ivor Gurney, Michael Hurd first defined Gurney’s illness as paranoid
schizophrenia based on his own careful analysis of Gurney’s mental state
at various times in his life, his behavior, social interactions, traits,
hereditary factors, medical records, interviews and Gurney’s own writings.
Hurd observed that "prolonged bouts of depression were a feature"
of Gurney’s adult life and that "they usually followed a period
of intense creativity". What Hurd is actually describing is, in
fact, the recurrent or cyclic nature of manic-depressive illness. However,
what Hurd learned about Gurney’s behaviour led him to conclude: "All
this suggests a type of mind and body that found it difficult to reach
a state of equilibrium and self-acceptance, and which was in no way
aided by a satisfactory emotional life. In such circumstances the advent
of schizophrenic psychosis is scarcely surprising." He also concluded
that the "delusions which he then suffered were typical" of
the illness. Hurd went a step further and suggested that Gurney’s mother,
Florence, may have suffered from a "similar disposition, though
to a much lesser degree...and may have passed on to her son all the
essential ingredients of his genius and his undoing."(4)
Hurd’s conclusions were supported by the late William
H. Trethowan, Professor of Psychiatry at the University of Birmingham,
who published his analysis, "Ivor Gurney’s Mental Illness"
in Music and Letters in 1981.(5) Trethowan states that "Gurney’s
mental illness...took the form of a paranoid schizophrenic psychosis
(i.e. that form of schizophrenia characterized by persistent persecutory
delusions) which ultimately became chronic." When Gurney was admitted
to the City of London Mental Hospital shortly before Christmas, 1922,
the diagnosis was "systematized delusional insanity" which
Trethowan interpreted as "an old-fashioned term synonymous with
paranoid schizophrenia, the term now preferred." Even though Trethowan
was aware of Gurney’s dramatic mood swings, he chose instead to focus
on the hallucinations and delusions that Gurney suffered. From these
incidents, which began in Gurney’s mid-twenties and were most severe
when he was in the asylum, Trethowan concluded emphatically: "There
can be absolutely no doubt about the nature of Gurney’s illness."
Like Hurd, Trethowan implies that Gurney "inherited...his mental
instability from his mother", and suggests that given her personality
traits she "could certainly be described as schizoid".(6)
Both Hurd and Trethowan focussed largely on Gurney’s
delusional behavior in the asylum. They reached their conclusions more
than 20 years ago at a time when mental illness in its various manifestations
and subtleties was not as well understood or as clearly defined as it
is today. For example, musicians, artists and writers, including Robert
Schumann, John Ruskin, Virginia Woolfe, Vincent van Gogh, and Ezra Pound,
once thought to be schizophrenic would not be classified that way today.
Distinguishing between manic-depressive illness
and schizophrenia
Manic-depressive illness is a mood disorder. Schizophrenia
is a cognitive, or thinking disorder. While both illnesses have some
symptoms in common and primarily strike their victims in adolescence
and early adulthood, schizophrenia alters the development of thought
processes that are critical to the creative process while manic-depressive
illness does not.
Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison, an authority on manic-depressive
illness and professor of psychiatry at the Johns Hopkins University
School of Medicine in the United States, explains that "Most clinicians
are now aware that psychotic features such as flagrant paranoia, severe
cognitive disorganization, delusions, and hallucinations — once thought
by some psychiatrists to be more characteristic of schizophrenia — are
in fact relatively common in manic-depressive illness.(7)
"The latter," she continues, "can
usually be distinguished from schizophrenia by a family history of depression,
manic-depressive illness, or suicide, a lifetime course of manic and
depressive episodes interspersed with long periods of normal thinking
and behavior, and generally healthier personality and social functioning
prior to the onset of the illness. Bizarre behavior, once thought to
be much more characteristic of schizophrenia, is now recognized as a
frequent component of mania as well."(8) Dr. Jamison writes as
both an expert on the illness and as one of its victims.
Manic-depressive or bi-polar illness is characterized
by a variety of symptoms in each of its phases. According to Dr. Jamison,
depressive symptoms include "apathy, lethargy, hopelessness, sleep
disturbance (sleeping far too much or too little), slowed physical movement,
slowed thinking, impaired memory, and concentration, and a loss of pleasure
in normally pleasurable events...suicidal thinking, self-blame, inappropriate
guilt, recurrent thoughts of death, a minimum duration of the depressive
symptoms (two to four weeks), and significant interference with the
normal functioning of life". Persistent physical problems, including
digestive disorders, that do not respond to treatment can also be present.
(9)
Gurney was no stranger to these symptoms of depression.
"But oh, so sick of everything...I will allow anyone to say anything
against my Scherzo, my slow Movement even, which show to what depths
I have descended," wrote the usually strong-willed Gurney in a
letter to Marion Scott. On another occasion he says his "bloody-bloody
head is thick..." while he also complained of suffering from "a
dry-up of thought" and a brain that "won’t move". His
later correspondence and poetry are full of references to death, guilt,
self-blame and suicidal thoughts.
In the manic phase, victims experience symptoms
that are opposite those encountered in depression. The mood is "generally
elevated and expansive (or, not infrequently, paranoid and irritable);
activity and energy levels are greatly increased; the need for sleep
is decreased; speech is often rapid, excitable, and intrusive; and thinking
is fast, moving quickly from topic to topic," explains Dr. Jamison.
Further, in a manic state, victims have "inflated self-esteem,
as well as a certainty of conviction about the correctness and importance
of their ideas. This grandiosity can contribute to poor judgment, which
in turn, often results in chaotic patterns of personal and professional
relationships...In its extreme forms, mania is characterized by violent
agitation, bizarre behavior, delusional thinking, and visual and auditory
hallucinations."(10)
Symptoms of this illness in its manic phase were
common to Gurney. His friend John Haines told Marion Scott about spending
a day with Gurney and being "horrified...After a while I began
to see that his ideas about the voices and so forth, though extravagant,
were in themselves ordered and sensible". Gurney was so high that
day that Haines reported: "I was so exhausted and drained that
I slept around the clock!" On another visit with Gurney, Haines
noted that Ivor was "composing both verse and music with the same
extraordinary rapidity still."(11)
All of Gurney’s friends were aware of his dramatic
mood swings. "I always seem to be writing contradictory letters...about
Ivor. The fact is I simply don’t know what to make of him and he varies
as the wind," Haines wrote Marin Scott. "It is not easy to
determine to what exact extent his present mood is based on simple restlessness,"
observed Gurney’s friend, composer Herbert Howells. While Margaret Hunt,
a woman who had known Gurney from the time he was 15, recalled: "Ivor
must always struggle hard for expression. We know him so well of course
and have seen him in so many moods and the joy of life and creation
is so marked, while the reaction goes deeper than with anyone I have
ever seen."(12)
One of the key questions contemporary psychiatrists
consider when distinguishing between manic-depressive and schizophrenic
patients is: "Does the patient like people?" The answer in
Gurney’s case was "yes". In fact, he not only liked people,
he thrived on his relationships, and people, in turn, liked him — a
strong indication that he was not schizophrenic.(13)
An important symptom of schizophrenia now recognized
by psychiatrists is the withdrawal of schizophrenic victims into a world
entirely their own that is characterized by a reluctance, even an inability,
to make human contact and sustain relationships. Gurney did not withdraw
from the world voluntarily in 1922. He did not choose to be imprisoned
in an asylum or to be cut off from society. He was committed because
his younger brother Ronald believed that’s where Gurney belonged despite
Ivor’s episodes of sanity amid the cyclic chaos of his mind. Ivor knew
he was troubled, but he also knew he was not crazy or mad. He begged
for help, but it was not forthcoming. "Rescue me while I am sane,"
he pleaded in a letter to Marion Scott written shortly after he was
first admitted to an asylum in Gloucester.
Because Gurney’s illness was never diagnosed correctly
or understood, he was cast into a prison-like environment which offered
nothing in the way of social contact, intellectual stimulation or even
basic treatment for his illness. He was cut off from the people who
cared for him and who provided the social interactions that meant so
much to him. Denied this lifeline, he retreated deeper and deeper into
himself in the asylum. He had nothing in common with his fellow inmates
and wanted nothing to do with them. By separating himself from other
patients, he was trying to protect himself as best he could from the
negative atmosphere and influences in the asylum, a place in which he
knew he did not belong.
Marion Scott understood this and tried to get
him released to her care or into care more compatible with his true
mental condition which required intellectual and artistic stimulation
along with compassionate companionship and access to the curative powers
of nature which always benefited Gurney. The authorities in charge of
Gurney’s care would not allow this and the best Scott could do was have
Gurney transferred from the asylum in Gloucester to one in London nearer
to her. This move enabled her to visit him regularly, to take him out
on day trips and to bring as much of the outside world to him as possible.
But this was not enough to stop the steady progression of his illness.
Unfortunately, between 1922 and 1937 when Gurney was in the asylum,
modern drugs and sophisticated psycho-analytical treatment were not
available.
Florence Gurney, a life of disappointment
"...the very thing we look forward to so much
is bitter"
For the key to understanding Gurney’s mental illness
and its effect on both his life and his work, it is necessary to do
as he did, look at his life through the corridors of time, beginning
not with Ivor himself but with his mother Florence Lugg Gurney.
By all accounts Florence Gurney was a difficult,
temperamental woman whose behaviour was at times unpredictable and contradictory.
Gurney’s elder sister, Winifred, painted an unflattering
portrait of their mother, describing life under her "iron rule"
and "nagging" as "something akin to a bed of stinging
nettles". Winifred claimed that Florence Gurney "did not seem
to enjoy her children, and so far as I could see she did not win their
love".(14) Gurney’s brother, Ronald, remembered a "terrible
streak in mother — not mad but certainly bad with a touch of...evil
about her" and called her "a menace".(15) The Gurney
children favored their father, recalling him as "the more home-loving,
affectionate parent" who "was not allowed to give us as much
love as he had for us."(16)
Marion Scott, whose feelings for Gurney ran deeper
than friendship, made a point of befriending the Gurney family in 1918.(17)
She liked David Gurney, who impressed her as "gentle and slightly
puzzled by life in general and his eldest son in particular". But
she was brutal in her assessment of Florence, believing her to be "borderline"
at times and claiming that she possessed a character "as hard as
flint...and was probably incapable of feeling anything like love."
Yet Scott felt that it was Florence from whom Ivor "inherited his
strange power of placing ideas in unusual juxtapositions," but
with a great difference between mother and son. "With him it was
genius, and with her it was almost foolishness."(18)
Born at Bisley near Stroud in 1860, Florence Lugg
was one of eight children of William Lugg, a house decorator, and Mary
Dutton. She loved music and had received some instruction in it but
like many young women of her era, she went without formal education.
It is likely that as soon as she was old enough, she was sent out to
work, probably as a family servant.
Life could not have been easy for Florence Gurney,
raising her children, keeping house in cramped quarters above the tailor’s
shop, working with her husband, and dealing with a precocious child
like Ivor whose contentious relationship with Ronald was cause for much
disharmony in the household. At the age of 40, this already tired and
care-worn woman gave birth to her fourth child, Dorothy. She was overwhelmed.
With all that she felt she had to contend with alone, including a benign,
only moderately-ambitious husband, it is no wonder that her spirit soured,
reducing her to nagging and making her appear spiteful, selfish, mean
and emotionally barren, but she was not always that way.
Winifred recalled that her mother "possessed
us as babies" and "certainly did her best to bring us up well,"
caring thoroughly for their material needs. She was determined to give
her children enriching opportunities, particularly in music which she
loved. While Winifred and Ronald were inclined to emphasize the unpleasant
memories, life in the Gurney household was not miserable all the time
nor was Florence always acting the shrew. She could be tender and understanding
when she needed to be and she had the sense to know when those times
were.
More telling about her than the bleak memories
of Winifred and Ronald are her own rambling, unpunctuated letters. They
hint of a woman with a sensitive nature and the eye of a keen observer,
whose own vision and use of words leaned towards the poetic. She described
Ivor’s hair as "straight and silver", the hair of her other
children as "gold" and recalled a scene from her past in which
garden tools and diggers "shone like silver".
In a 1927 letter to Marion Scott, Florence described
how seeing the words "it is better to travel hopefully than to
arrive" on a pulpit reminded her of life’s disappointments. "I
had been looking forward to hearing the Band in the Park and oh I was
disappointed twas music without a soul so that is how it is through
life the very thing we look forward to so much is bitter."(19)
Nature excited Florence Gurney just as it did Ivor.
Winifred recalled that her mother would "go into raptures over
a beautiful sunset", while a niece once observed Florence going
"into ecstasies over a flower". Florence was more sensitive
than anyone realized and possessed an artistic temperament that craved
expression. But she was imprisoned by circumstances and saw no way of
expressing her own poetic and musical sides. Her behavior and attitudes
speak loudly of a woman battling frustration, consumed by disappointment
and looking for scapegoats in those closest to her, those she felt were
responsible for her misery — her children and her husband. Florence
Gurney undoubtedly felt that there was never enough of anything — time,
money, space, quiet, freedom.
There is more to be considered about Florence Gurney’s
behavior. Most of the memories of the Gurney children center on what
they perceived as her inability to be warm and loving, her constant
nagging, and her abrasive manner, dating primarily from their teenage
years when Florence was in her forties and early fifties. By the age
of 40, when she had her last child, she could have been suffering from
post-partum depression.
This depression might then have flowed unbroken
into menopause. Menopause can be a difficult time for many women, even
in our modern age with medications to help control mood swings, irritability,
sleeplessness and physical discomfort. Florence had to live with her
symptoms, having no way to diminish or erase them. Her already fragile
mental state combined with menopause, which affects both emotional and
physical well- being, could very well have exacerbated her unpredictable
behavior. The timing of her menopause symptoms also coincided with a
time when her children were beginning to need their mother less. With
her children seeking their own independence, it is likely that Florence
Gurney no longer felt needed or loved herself.
Although Winifred remembered that Ivor was "kindly
disposed" to his mother as a child, as he grew older they often
clashed. Ivor had a "terrible temper" as did Florence. Ronald
said that when Ivor was an adult he would hardly get in the house "before
his nerves and Mother’s collide". The clashes between Florence
and Ivor were not rooted so much in differences as they were in the
similarities of two people of like temperament, each seeing in the other
an unsettling self-reflection.
The portrait of Florence as a woman incapable of
feeling love and expressing it is drawn largely from the memories and
impressions of Winifred and Ronald Gurney, who were jealous of Ivor
and harboured bitterness against their mother for what they felt were
the sacrifices she forced other family members to make so that Ivor
could study music. They undoubtedly sensed that Ivor was his mother’s
favorite — or at least appeared to be — given the lengths she went to
ensure his success. Their memories of life in the Gurney household,
of their mother and of Ivor must be regarded with a degree of caution.
Petty jealousies, lack of communication, simmering
resentments, clashing personalities and shattered dreams fueled the
current of anger and hostility that made members of the Gurney household
tense, combative and embittered. Young Ivor contributed as much to the
discord in his home as anyone. No one family member was solely responsible
and despite her own resentments, Winifred understood better than anyone
what went wrong in part.
"If we could only have broken down this terrible
barrier and had a round table conference, we would have been a happier
and more united family; but obstinacy and determination was so practiced
amongst us, I think, that we developed unbreakable control, because
our emotions were so strong," Winifred wrote in the early 1950s.
"There was always the desire to clear matters up and let bygones
be bygones, but as we were all stiff and unbending, we couldn’t do it."(20)
"The strange coming to personality"
From mother to son — the genetic factor
Relatively little is known about Florence Gurney’s
life so a thorough evaluation of her mental state is not possible. However,
the information available does provide some significant insights.
There is little doubt that Florence was in control
of the Gurney household. Her erratic behavior intimidated her husband
and children, making them anxious and wary because they never knew what
would trigger her outbursts of temper or prompt her nagging. It appears
that she was a good, caring — even loving — mother when her children
were young but that her behavior was like Ivor’s, varied "as the
wind". Although Winifred and Ronald had little good to say about
their mother, Ivor, by contrast wrote or said very little about her
or any other member of his family. Yet there is no known record of him
complaining about Florence’s treatment of him or his siblings. In late
1922, shortly before Ivor was to be moved from the asylum in Glouceser
to the City of London Mental Hospital, he expressed his concern for
his mother in a poignant appeal for Ronald to "Look after Mother
please." He wrote this at a time when his own life was in jeopardy
and it is not the response expected from a man who does not care for,
or love, his mother.
Judging from her letters, Florence took pride in
Ivor’s achievements and it appears that she did her best to provide
opportunities for him and her other children. After Gurney’s death,
she wrote" "we keep grieving about Ivor".
If read carefully, Florence Gurney’s own words
cast doubt on the image of her as a cold woman who was incapable of
feeling love or giving love. Like many people of her era — and even
today — she could well have found it difficult to express feelings of
warmth and tenderness because she might have grown up in a household
where they were absent. Because she had difficulty expressing her feelings
does not mean that she was devoid of them.
Florence’s letters were written with a breathless,
manic energy and exude a sense of her being overwhelmed and in complete
disarray as if she cannot collect her thoughts or herself in a coherent
manner. In her letters, she reveals a fearfulness that sometimes goes
beyond reason as well as guilt, self-deprecation, and helplessness.
The one constant in Florence Gurney’s behaviour
was its inconsistency. Given her mercurial, unpredictable moods running
from depression to manic highs with episodes of paranoid behaviour later
in life, it is possible she suffered from a degree of manic-depressive
illness.
Manic-depressive illness is a familial disease.
According to Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison: "Individuals who have manic-depressive
illness are quite likely to have both bipolar and unipolar relatives";
or, in other words, relatives with both manic and depressive behaviour
(bipolar) or manifestations of either depression or manic behaviour
(unipolar) but not necessarily both.(21) While it is not possible to
trace its course through Florence Gurney’s family, it appears that her
siblings were inclined toward "highly excitable" or manic
behaviour while she herself experienced both manic and depressive moods.
Another of Florence’s relatives — the exact relationship is not known
— was remembered as "brilliant". He is said to have spent
"many years of his life" as a patient at Barnwood House, where
Ivor Gurney was first admitted in the early autumn of 1922.(22)
Studies conducted by the National Institute of
Mental Health in the United States indicate that if one parent has manic-depressive
illness and the other parent does not, the risk of either depressive
or manic-depressive illness in their child is 28 percent. If both parents
are affected that risk rises to 75 percent. Because the state of David
Gurney’s mental health is not known, his genetic role in Ivor’s illness
cannot be gauged.
What is certain, however, is that Ivor Gurney exhibited
signs of manic-depressive illness from an early age and that, like his
mother, nearly everything in his life was inconsistent and extreme.
A stranger to his family
"Insurrection and desire to be one’s own and
free..."
When he was only a child, Gurney removed himself
as best he could, both physically and emotionally, from the tension,
hostility and depressing atmosphere at home. He was sensitive, but also
precocious and strong willed and seemed to know instinctively how to
protect himself from unpleasant situations. He possessed an out-going
personality and quickly surrounded himself with sympathic friends who
understood him and nurtured and enouraged him: his godfather, the Reverend
Alfred Cheesman, musicians Margaret and Emily Hunt, and friends his
own age, particularly composer Herbert Howells and poet F. W. "Will"
Harvey.
As he grew older and drifted further from his family,
he became a stranger who "did not seem to belong to us", someone
who "simply called on us briefly, and left again without a word",
Winifred recalled. He became "pompous and scornful" of his
family and they took his attitude to mean that he felt he was too good
to associate with them. His family rarely saw him. Florence, who was
suspicious and possessive by nature, grew jealous of Ivor’s friendships
outside the family and undoubtedly saw Ivor’s friends as taking her
son away from her and filling him with high-blown ideas. She sensed
that Ivor had left her and she was right.
One of the most influential adults in Gurney’s
early years was his godfather, the Reverend Alfred Cheesman but it wasn’t
until Gurney attended Sunday School at All Saints Church that he began
to play an active role in Ivor’s life.(23)
At Cheesman’s suggestion, Ivor became a probationer
in the All Saints Choir, a position that provided him with basic grounding
in music. Two years later, when Ivor was ten years old, Cheesman encouraged
him to compete for a place in the Gloucester Cathedral Choir, which
he won. His position at the Cathedral provided him with the opportunity
to attend the King’s School, where he received both a general and musical
education. It was the first of many opportunities Gurney was to enjoy
thanks to the intervention of Alfred Cheesman, who found him jobs, coached
him for exams, taught him how to read and recite poetry, took him on
trips, and raised money to help Ivor with his expenses when he attended
the Royal College of Music in London on a scholarship.
In his teenage years, Gurney began to exhibit behavior
that concerned those who knew him. He became daring and self-destructive
and increasingly indifferent to his personal appearance. While disregard
to clothing and cleanliness is not uncommon among boys, it was one of
several aspects of Ivor’s behavior that presaged the onset of more serious
problems.
According to Marion Scott, Gurney "adored
violent exercise, exulted in storms and sailed with a daring near to
madness". He was a powerful athlete whose habit of walking had
pushed his capacity for sustained physical activity to a high level.
He became a tough, aggressive participant in school-boy sports and so
self-centered that he "seemed to think he could beat the other
side on his own". His sister Dorothy recalled that once while Ivor
was out hunting birds with his father’s sporting gun he accidentally
shot himself in the foot.(24)
But there was more than external physical danger
surrounding Gurney. His eating habits were abnormal in the extreme and
alarming. In what developed into a pattern, he would starve himself
for long periods and when hunger finally overtook him, he would consume
food like a starving person. Instead of eating practical nutritional
foods, he would eat a half-dozen ice cream cones for his meal, or unreasonable
quantities of apples or a loaf of bread or even a pound of butter. He
had a particular weakness for cakes. Once he gave in to his desire for
food, he was unable to stop eating. When he was in his late twenties,
he acknowledged his shame at this self-proclaimed "bestial"
behaviour.
Gurney had been a reasonably healthy child, suffering
from typical childhood diseases including chronic bronchitis and unspecified
ear trouble. By Florence Gurney’s account, Ivor’s teeth "grew projecting
out" and it appears that some effort was made to correct the problem
by "pulling them in" perhaps aligning them by extracting other
teeth that were crowding his mouth. The result was a row of uneven teeth
that left him with a poor overbite which Florence felt made Ivor’s mouth
worse.(25)
In his teens he began to suffer from digestive
trouble which would eventually interfere with his studies and work and
which was to plague him throughout his life. What he labeled "the
trail of the dyspectic serpent" was frequently wrapped around him.
He described his insides as "twisted". While poor teeth and
a bad overbite could account for some of his erratic eating habits,
Gurney’s obsessions with food — starving himself and then gorging himself,
eating unsuitable combinations of food that would likely make him ill
— suggest a deeper cause than having difficulty chewing his food.
The exact nature of his early digestive trouble
has never been defined although Gurney described it as "dyspepsia"
(indigestion). It is clear that the kinds of food Gurney ate could cause
both emotional and physical problems for him. For example, the large
quantities of sweets he consumed would give him a rush of sugar, or
what is known today as a "sugar high", that would elevate
his mood and make him hyperactive. But the sweets he ate were devoid
of any nutritional value. The large quantities of cakes, apples, butter,
ice cream and odd assortments of food he consumed did not provide Gurney
with the balance of protein, carbohydrates, fats, minerals and vitamins
the human body needs to function normally.
Gurney was ill-nourished and it is likely that
he suffered from severe vitamin and mineral deficiencies. If the memories
of his friends are accurate, he ate virtually no foods containing protein,
which among other functions, synthesizes enzymes, hormones and other
substances that regulate vital body processes, including digestion.
Gurney’s natural defences against illness were diminished. He was not
only jeopardizing his digestive system but endangering the function
of his entire body. His chemically imbalanced system undoubtedly affected
his mental function, intensifying his pre-existing disposition to mood
swings.
He was also getting very little sleep. "But
night to labour/To work, read, walk night through," he wrote of
the pattern of his early years that continued into his adulthood. Even
as a teenager when he was spending long hours with friends like Margaret
and Emily Hunt, he would leave in the evening and walk out into the
countryside. Thrilled by the sights and sounds of nature and absorbed
in his own thoughts, he might return home and work through the night
composing music.
Ivor Gurney was living a very full life, one in
which there was little time for rest or relaxation. His days were brimming
with activity between school and studies, the Cathedral Choir, and later
his music lessons, reading, his walks, his visits with friends, his
own attempts at composition and his part-time work as an organist. He
was over-extending himself and working in a white heat which he could
not sustain indefinitely despite his desire to do so. Overcome by exhaustion,
he would be forced to stop working. Incongruously, he came to view his
need to rest as a defect in his character. What Gurney regarded guiltily
as "sloth" in himself was more likely illness induced by his
poor nutrition, irregular sleep, obsessive work habits and digestive
problems rather than laziness. It was also indicative of depression.
He was already experiencing a pattern of extremes ranging from highs
and euphoria to lows and despair with little level ground in the middle
on which he could stand firmly.
Gurney’s erratic behaviour continued at the Royal
College of Music. By this time, 1911, he possessed a great deal of charm,
which coupled with his good looks and intelligence made him a most attractive
young man with many friends. He attended concerts, socialized, even
became a member of the elite Beloved Vagabonds Club, which met at Holland
Park to perform music, and an associate member of Marion Scott’s newly
founded Society of Women Musicians.
Gurney’s strong will and arrogance made him a difficult
student and he often clashed with his composition teacher, Sir Charles
Villiers Stanford, who later declared that Gurney was "potentially
the most gifted pupil" that ever came his way but that he was "unteachable".(26)
While Gurney’s close friends Herbert Howells and Arthur Benjamin were
getting along well in their studies, participating in college events
and, in Howells’ case, working on large-scale compositions, Gurney was
not keeping pace. He talked big about writing operas, symphonies and
concertos and was as full of himself and his dreams as ever. But he
was producing very little accomplished music at this point in his life
— a string quartet, a theme and variations for piano, a violin sonata,
an orchestral march, a string trio, student exercises and a scattering
of songs in which his original voice was beginning to emerge. His manuscripts
were disorganized and illegible and reflected the turmoil of an illness
simmering inside him.
In the meantime, Gurney watched Howells advance
rapidly to become the star composition student at the RCM while he seemed
to plod along on his own resenting Stanford’s discipline and feeling
trapped by the rules that were the very making of Howells’ early success.
The first breakdown
Euphoria and despair
Eventually Gurney lost control of his life and
in the spring of 1913 suffered a seemingly mild breakdown in London.
He was 23 years old.
"My brain, heart, nerves, and physique are
certified sound, but...I am overworked and quite run down," he
explained in a letter to Marion Scott.(27) There are few letters from
this period and no official known documentation of his illness so it
has not been possible to determine precisely when Gurney suffered the
collapse, but he was showing signs of both physical and mental problems,
namely depression, as early as January. Some weeks later, perhaps in
late March, his condition worsened to the point where he consulted a
doctor who gave him orders to return to Gloucestershire, which he did
in late April or early May.
Once away from the chaos of London, Gurney threw
himself into hard physical labour and turned also to sailing and walking,
activities that were his own means of combatting the effects of stress,
overwork and depression throughout his life. During the dark times when
his excessive mental activity seemed to overwhelm him, he shifted the
focus of his attention from his mind to his body and became a physical
force. Gurney seemed incapable of resting completely and ceasing all
activity. One part of him was always in motion. By July, his depression
was lifting and he was "taking risks in pure glory of soul and
joy of heart and yelling and quoting and singing and hauling at the
sheet...and breaking my arm with the tiller". He was making an
effort to write poetry and was reading books at a rapid rate. His health,
both physical and mental, might have been improving in his eyes but
in truth, he was far from well. His chief complaints remained attacks
of "the Blues" and stomach problems.
Although the cause of Gurney’s 1913 breakdown is
generally laid to "overwork", his actual production that year
and in 1912 was relatively slim. If he sat down to write music, he could
only "stare at blank paper until I was sick at heart!" His
studies, assignments and college rehearsals undoubtedly occupied much
of his time but certainly his friends, Howells, Benjamin and others,
were equally challenged while Howells was remarkably productive.
However, as a disorganized and careless individual,
who had difficulty focusing on his work, Gurney might have found it
too much of a burden to keep up. Further, regimen annoyed and frustrated
him and often sparked his anger and rebellion. He much preferrred to
experiment with original ideas and to follow his own direction, erratic
though it may appear, than to conform to rules imposed on him by others.
"Any routine irked him," observed Marion Scott many years
later.
After his creative dry spell, he dived headlong
into work and activity again and was able to write to his friend Will
Harvey: "Gradually the cloud passes...I have done 5 of the most
delightful and beautiful songs you ever cast your beaming eyes upon.
They are all Elizabethan — the words — and blister my kidneys, bisurate
my magnesia if the music is not as English, as joyful, as tender as
any lyric of all that noble host."(28) The songs were Gurney’s
Five Elizabethan Songs and he knew that he had done something
great. In one breath of genius, he equalled the song achievements of
his teacher Stanford as well as those of other notable composers of
the day, including Elgar, Vaughan Williams, John Ireland and Hubert
Parry.
Gurney had told Harvey about the songs in early
1914, probably January, and was excited by the prospect of the "sacred
hunger for Spring that nourishes the fire in you" but as had happened
in 1913, Gurney slipped again into depression. The cycle of his manic-depressive
illness was repeating and the space of time between his manic moods
and his depression seemed to be shrinking. Gurney knew something was
wrong with him and described his affliction as "neurasthenia"
— exhaustion from overwork or prolonged mental strain. For the rest
of his life, he would try to find ways to overcome it, but he had no
way of knowing that there was nothing he could do to stop the illness
from accelerating and eventually overpowering him.
Gurney’s lethargy or "sloth", as he described
it, his apathy and confusion, his inability to concentrate, the unevenness
in quality and quantity of his work, his carelessness, insomnia, restlessness,
indifference to his surroundings and appearance were all symptoms of
depression. During these periods, he appeared withdrawn, self-absorbed
and "dreamy". As his condition worsened in his mid- and late-twenties,
Gurney began to experience symptoms that indicated his illness was indeed
advancing. He began to have suicidal thoughts, indulged in self-blame
and inappropriate guilt, and had recurrent thoughts of death as an escape
from his troubles — all signs that he was deteriorating.
In these early stages of his illness, he was clearly
exhibiting symptoms of manic behavior as well. As his black mood lifted
— "Gradually the cloud passes" — he was flooded with energy
and his mood became elevated and expansive. He switched from a brooding
introvert to a gregarious extrovert. In the manic state he felt he was
invincible. He became impulsive and reckless, undertaking daredevil
physical actitivity that put him in danger.
He was like a sponge, absorbing everything around
him and firing it back in a flood of monologues that left his listeners
breathless and unable to take it all in. His physical and mental energy
were overwhelming, almost out of control, and his creativity was greatly
heightened. After a bout of depression, he would throw himself into
his work with such fervor that he forgot about sleeping and eating and
seemed able to survive on a minimum of both.
By contrast, during a depression, he berated himself
for his bad habits, his failures, his slowness, or any number of self-perceived
deficiencies. But once the depression lifted, his confidence and self-esteem
were restored, he became cocky, arrogant and vain.
Then with his candle burning at both ends, the
string drawn as tightly as possible, Gurney would begin to come down
from his high and stumble back into the darkness.
War — an unlikely respite
"Saner and more engaged with outside things"
A temporary respite from his illness would come
from an unlikely source — war.
For Ivor Gurney military service was an "experiment"
undertaken not so much out of patriotic duty as out of the need for
self-preservation and to escape, if only temporarily, from increasing
emotional disturbances he could neither control nor understand. He believed
that in the hard, disciplined army life with its demands for order,
attention to detail and routine, he might find some stability and perhaps
come away with his fragile mental and physical health restored.
In the early months of his training, his experiment
seemed to be working. He claimed he was was in "a much happier
frame of mind" than he had been for some four years and believed
that his health was slowly improving. Although the rigorous training
exhausted him, he found that he was experiencing "healthy"
fatigue, not "nervous exhaustion". Perhaps for the first time
in his life, Ivor Gurney was eating regular, balanced meals, including
meat which he seemed to have avoided in the past.
Although he complained about the boredom and pettiness
of military life, the artist in Gurney was alive and alert to the sensations,
sights and sounds in his new world. The language in his letters is poetic,
his descriptions vivid, his observations keen, his arguments and discussions
about books, music and ideas are philosphical, searching and profound.
His ready wit graced many of his letters. He enjoyed the comradeship
and diverse backgrounds of his fellow soldiers and, as he had done when
he was a civilian, he made friends. He wrote hundreds of letters to
friends in England and they wrote back. Had Gurney possessed the withdrawn
and potentially dangerous anti-social behavior of a schizophrenic, it
is unlikely that he would have made friends or that he would have made
it through basic training much less become a reliable soldier at the
Front.
Once Gurney landed in France, he claimed he found
war "damned interesting" and told Marion Scott that it would
be "hard indeed to be deprived of all this artists material now."
He felt that he was more able to shut introspection out of his mind
as he became "saner and more engaged with outside things".
He expressed concern that "the Lord God [might] have the bad taste
to delete me" and "the thought of leaving all I have to say,
unsaid" made him "cold".
Prior to joining the army, Gurney had begun thinking
seriously about writing poetry, but it wasn’t until he reached France
and found himself in the thick of battle that, according to Marion Scott,
his poetic "genius suddenly flowered".
Gurney started sending poems with his letters to
Marion Scott and by the winter of 1916/1917 they were collaborating
on what would become Gurney’s first book, Severn and Somme, which
was published through Scott’s efforts in November 1917.(29) Typically,
Gurney, excited by the possibilities around him, was working in his
usual white heat, writing poems and even several songs, reading, writing
long letters and doing his job as a soldier. War had carried him from
the Somme to Ypres and into some of the worst confrontations of the
Great War. Yet he seemed to take soldiering in stride and was proud
that he had earned a reputation for being "extremely cool under
shellfire". His excessive activity indicates that he was experiencing
one of his manic phases but it did not interfere with his ability to
carry out his duties nor did he plunge into depression.
A romantic interlude
"Love has come to bind me fast"
On Good Friday, April 7, 1917, Gurney was wounded
in the upper arm and spent six weeks recovering before he was returned
to action. In September he was gassed at St. Julien. He described the
effects of the gas as "no worse than catarrh or a bad cold"
but doctors thought otherwise and sent him to the Edinburgh War Hospital
for treatment. He was pleased to have earned the "blighty"
that got him out of battle and it wasn’t long before he fell in with
hospital routines. He played the piano, wrote poetry, made new friends
and enjoyed the company of the Scottish nurses, particularly that of
V.A.D. Annie Nelson Drummond.(30) Prior to his relationship with Drummond,
Gurney appears to have had little experience with women beyond his friendships
with the Hunt sisters and Marion Scott. His closest companions had always
been male and he held his friend Will Harvey as dearest of them all.
As the eldest of five children in a family dominated
by successful businesswomen, Annie became responsible for the primary
care of her four brothers. Despite her practical background, she possessed
the sensibilities of an artist and was searching for a way to express
her own great love of beauty and nature when Gurney arrived at the hospital.
He was unlike any soldier who had come into her care before and it wasn’t
long before a relationship developed between them. Gurney dreamed of
getting her to settle down and make "a solid rock foundation for
me to build on — a home and a tower of light". He neglected to
say what he could provide for her. After he was released from the hospital
they exchanged letters and saw each other when Gurney could get away
from his duties. According to Marion Scott, they became secretly engaged.(31)
Gurney’s spirits were soaring. Then by mid-March,
Annie Drummond was gone from his life. As much as she cared about Gurney,
it is likely that as a nurse, she began to see that Ivor Gurney was
an unstable young man, a fact she might not have been willing to allow
herself to admit earlier. She knew what it was to dream, but she knew
that living in a dream was not the way to build a life together. She
had already been caregiver for her four younger brothers and did not
want to become the caregiver for a husband as well. Gurney was devastated.
The situation with Annie Drummond was complex and appears to have been
the catalyst for a severe episode of depression in Gurney. As he had
done in early 1913 and in early 1914, he felt himself sliding towards
depression.
One of the characteristics of manic-depressive
illness is its seasonal cycle in some of its victims. Two thousand years
ago, Hippocrates observed that "mania and melancholia were more
likely to occur in the spring and autumn". According to Dr. Kay
Redfield Jamison "Modern research bears out these early observations...Two
broad peaks are evident in the seasonable incidence of major depressive
episodes: spring (March, April, May) and autumn (September, October,
and November)...Individuals who have manic-depressive or artistic temperaments
may share an uncommon sensitivity to seasonal fluctuations in light
as well as pronounced changes in mood as a result of those fluctuations."(32)
Seasonal cycles of manic-depressive illness vary with individuals. In
Gurney’s case he seemed most vulnerable to the depression cycle in the
spring with a slow climb to his manic phase taking place during the
summer months.
After the break with Annie Drummond, however, he
entered a period of depression that seemed deeper and more prolonged
than in previous years. He experienced delusional episodes and for the
first time he openly threatened and attempted suicide but found that
he could not take his own life.(33) He would be hospitalized from April
to October 1918.
While it is easy to blame his war experience for
his breakdown, there is no evidence that he ever suffered symptoms of
the "deferred shell shock" that qualified him for discharge
from the army in October. The Ministry of Pensions recognized what was
really wrong with Gurney and declared that his disability was "Manic
Depressive Psychosis" but added that his condition was "Aggravated
by but not due to service".(34) Gurney knew full well that he had
not suffered from shell shock but felt it was to his benefit to let
military authorities believe he had, especially where his meagre pension
was concerned. When applying for the pension, Gurney admitted that he
had given the reason for the application as "‘after shell shock’,
which was false...".(35) The war certainly left its imprint on
Gurney, but it did not destroy him as so many people came to believe.(36)
Ultimately what did destroy Ivor Gurney was his
untreated manic-depressive illness.
The asylum
"Evil flowed black like a tide of darkness
over me"
After six months in military hospitals, Gurney
returned to civilian life "piteously thin...his uniform hanging
about him like a flag around a pole."(37) At first his friends
were alarmed by his erratic behaviour but eventually with his health
restored, he was able to resume his writing, his work as an organist
and his studies at the Royal College of Music. By 1919, a second collection
of his poetry, War’s Embers, had been published and his music
was being performed.(38) He moved comfortably in London music and literary
circles and earned a reputation as one of the most promising men of
his generation. Writers like Walter de la Mare and John Masefield took
an interest in his poetry while singers like Steuart Wilson, Gervase
Elwes and Harry Plunkett Greene performed his songs. He threw himself
back into his music and poetry, juggling both arts. From late 1918 through
late 1921, he worked at a manic pace, composing over 200 songs, including
some of his finest, and forging a new direction in his poetry.
Although his beloved friend Margaret Hunt died
in March 1919 and his father in May, Gurney seems to have kept his usual
cycle of depression at bay that spring.(39) He was productive but still
not anchored firmly in any one place, either physically or emotionally.
In October he complained of "nerves and an inability to think or
write at all clearly" but he managed to stay ahead of his depression
and by 1920 was enjoying the most productive and financially-secure
period of his life. However, it was not to last. He was restless, his
behaviour became unpredictable and inappropriate, and he could not hold
a job. He took to wandering between Gloucester and London, often walking
the 120-mile distance, sleeping in barns and earning a little money
singing folksongs in country inns. In London, he slept on the embankment,
and was picked up several times by the police, once suspected of being
a spy. His friends tried to help but Gurney was losing control of his
life and was heading for a severe breakdown.
By September 1922, "evil flowed black like
a tide of darkness" over Gurney. The emotional storms that had
swirled around him all his life intensified. He was beginning to suffer
from hallucinations and claimed he was being tormented by "tricks
of electricity". He had become violent and suicidal. Ronald Gurney,
feeling he had no other choice, had his brother declared insane and
committed to an asylum in Gloucester.
Gurney’s initial response to his imprisonment was
to escape because he was afraid that he would go "quietly mad".
He had already experienced the trauma of being in asylum-like conditions
when he was hospitalized at Lord Derby’s War Hospital in Warrington
for two months after his 1918 breakdown.(40) His first escape was dramatic.
He hurled a clock through a window and scaled a high wall, but he cut
himself so badly on the glass that he had to give himself up after only
a few hours of freedom. That was in October. He escaped again in November.
By December, his doctors had decided it would be best for Gurney to
be moved away from Gloucester. They called on Marion Scott to make the
arrangements to have him transferred to the City of London Mental Hospital
at Dartford. As he had done in Gloucester, he escaped but was quickly
recaptured. "I am treated like a lunatic," he complained to
Scott.
The responsibility for Gurney’s care ultimately
fell to Marion Scott who became his legal guardian for the remainder
of his life. As time passed, Scott found Gurney so "agonizingly
sane in his insanity" that he felt "every thread of the suffering
all the time", certainly an indication that he was lucid and functional
on most of the occasions when Marion went to visit him or took him out
on day trips.(41)
Gurney’s behaviour in the asylum was more delusional
than it had been on the outside and he complained of "a twisting
of the inside" and pain in his head so bad that he felt he would
be better off dead. His actions were violent and threatening, his words
obscene and sexual.
He wrote dozens of letters to the police and others
appealing to them to rescue him. The letters were never posted. He suffered
from insomnia and was given medications to help him sleep. He endured
a bout of "scurvy", which, if the diagnosis was correct, indicates
that his eating habits and nutrition remained poor despite the availability
of regular meals. "He will miss a meal or two and then eat an abnormal
amount of food at another meal," says a note in his medical records.
But worse than his natural illnesses was a "treatment" thrust
upon him without his consent and one that made him very ill.
In July 1923, Marion Scott was informed that Ronald
Gurney had given hospital authorities permission to innoculate Ivor
with a "mild form of Malaria" in a misguided effort to quell
his psychological symptoms. At the time, Malarial treatments were experimental
and were sometimes used on men still suffering from the effects of war.
However, injections of malaria were more commonly used to treat syphilis.
It was a dangerous and barbaric treatment that produced potentially
fatal fevers and hallucinations. Individuals who experience high fevers
can also suffer brain damage. Gurney was already hallucinating enough
without having more hallucinations induced. According to his medical
records, he was ill with malaria for at least a month enduring "daily
paroxysms of malaria fever" for part of that time. By November
5, Gurney’s physical health was "much improved but the malaria
has had no beneficial effect mentally".(42)
Marion Scott believed that Dartford was "the
best place for him", but it appears that Gurney was just another
patient to the doctors and attendants. While his medical records tell
the story of a man in decline, virtually no mention is made of how Gurney,
the artist, was filling his time. "...said to have been a capable
composer, and approved poet", noted one doctor almost as an aside
while another reference reveals that Gurney "continues to write
music". "He...busies himself with private matters," observed
another doctor.
What those "private matters" were seemed
to have been of little or no interest to his doctors or hospital authorities
but for Gurney they were his salvation — he had continued to write both
music and poetry. As he had done when he was a child, he simply removed
himself as best he could from the unpleasant situation of the asylum
by retreating into the world of words and deeper into himself, an act
that, for a time, helped keep his illness from completely consuming
him. While his doctors were coping with Gurney’s general health, his
delusions, his violent behaviour and concerns that he might attempt
suicide, Gurney was composing some of the finest poems he was ever to
write and which became a memoir not only of his suffering in the asylum
but of his entire life.
The last years
"Gone out every bright thing from my mind"
Although he had more difficulty sustaining his
musical voice, Gurney had more to say in his poems and he said it with
greater honesty, conviction and freedom during his asylum years than
at any other time. He laid himself bare. Many of his asylum poems are
autobiographical and reveal a depth of experience, despair, anger, loss,
disappointment and self-loathing that is absent from his earlier work.
However, some of these poems are also infused with tenderness, longing,
beauty, a richness of language and sparkling images that suggest nothing
about his life trapped "between four walls" of an asylum cell.
1925 was a remarkably productive year for Ivor
Gurney. His medical notes reveal that he was suffering from headaches
and other physical complaints, depression and delusions and was "no
better mentally", yet he managed to write at least nine collections
of poetry and compose some 50 songs and a few instrumental pieces. The
music is generally of no interest and meanders off into incoherence
while the poetry is uneven in quality. However, during this manic outburst
and another episode in 1926, Gurney wrote some of his finest poems:
"Epitaph on a Young Child", "The Silent One", "The
Coppice", "Hell’s Prayer", "The Love Song",
"The Poets of My County", "I Would Not Rest", "The
Sea Marge", "The Dancers", "December Evening".
Today, studies and analyses of Gurney’s complete
poetic achievement refer to the "impatience of his language",
"the queer contortions and omissions which become part of his manner",
how he "telescoped his thoughts so much that they are sometimes
very difficult to unravel", his "new, idiosyncratic mode of
expression", his "imagined world" that "deals with
parallels and comparisons", or how he "began many a poem [that]
winds into another, and possibly yet more...". When Edmund Blunden
was editing Gurney’s poetry for his 1954 collection Poems by Ivor
Gurney, he described the difficulty he faced in choosing the poems
and concluded that: "...the solution of the editorial puzzle appears
to be to take examples in which the principal topic survives least entangled
with one or two of the others always crowding upon Gurney’s memory."(43)
Critics attempt to justify these characteristics
in Gurney’s writing as signs of innovative genius or as the "actions...of
a skilful artist striving to create a wholly new kind of poetic utterance"
when, in fact, they are the fingerprints of his mental illness.
Gurney’s music also contained these fingerprints.
For example, Herbert Howells in the Music and Letters tribute
to Gurney published in 1938 wrote: "There were piano preludes thick
with untamed chords; violin sonatas strewn with ecstatic crises...an
essay for orchestra that strained a chaotic technique to breaking-point."
Michael Hurd observed: "It would be wrong to pretend that Gurney’s
songs are without blemish...His songs are like his poems...‘gnarled’
and full of quirks" and have "a tendency to allow a rhapsodic
manner to degenerate into general aimlessness. There is also a factor
that pulls in the opposite direction — a tendency, parallelled in the
syntax of his poetry, to telescope events so that modulation, in particular,
is achieved under pressure and is guaranteed, sometimes, only by the
most tenuous link."(44)
Both Gurney’s poetry and music clearly mirror the
manic thinking patterns that are classic signs of manic-depressive illness.
Early clinical researchers into manic-depressive
illness observed that the thought processes of its manic victims showed
"heightened distractibility", a "tendency to diffusiveness"
and "a spinning out the circle of ideas stimulated and jumping
off to others".(45) Swiss psychiatrist Eugen Bleuler found that
"The thinking of the manic is flighty. He jumps by by-paths from
one subject to another, and cannot adhere to anything". (46)
According to Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison, contemporary
researchers have shown that "manic patients, unlike normal individuals
or schizophrenics, tend to exhibit pronounced combinatory thinking.
Characterized by the merging of ‘precepts, ideas, or images in an incongruous
fashion’, the ideas formed in this way become ‘loosely strung together
and extravagantly combined and elaborated’."(47)
After 1926, there was little Gurney, himself, could
do to stop the debilitating effects of his untreated illness. He needed
help but none was given. Marion Scott tried but her efforts were rebuffed
by hospital authorities. He also needed to be allowed supervised freedom
to be outdoors and to enjoy the company of companions who could stimulate
his thoughts and his feelings. He was allowed none of this. Consequently,
he lost all hope. He grew more hostile to his environment and the people
in it. His rage at being confined must have been enormous and he released
it in abusive and violent behavior. His asylum keepers described him
as "sullen, solitary, silent and self-centered". His hallucinations
continued. He claimed that he was the author of Shakespeare’s plays,
that Beethoven had never existed and that he, Ivor Gurney, had composed
Beethoven’s music. Yet doctors would also find that he could be "quite
sensible and coherent" when dealing with the "normal affairs
of life" but he rarely enjoyed such opportunities.
If Gurney had been schizophrenic, he would not
have been able to sustain his productivity or his interest in his work
and in books for as long as he did. Schizophrenia, like Alzheimer’s
disease, is a dementing illness and is usually chronic and "relatively
unrelenting". Among other things, it renders its victims incapable
of reasoning clearly. Gurney was not demented nor did he lose his ability
to reason even though his medical records chronicle a slow, steady decline
to the point where his conversation was "rambling and disjointed"
and his memory "very defective". Individuals who are institutionalised
for long periods of time and have little or no outside stimulation often
lose touch with reality and become confused, disoriented and apathetic.
The only person who visited Gurney regularly was Marion Scott who took
him for rides and visits to the theatre. Otherwise, he had no contact
with the outside world. He would not have seen films or attended concerts
or had friends with whom he could talk. His life in the asylum was a
void.
As late as 1932, Gurney proved that he was neither
demented nor that he had lost his reason. Marion Scott asked Helen Thomas,
the widow of poet Edward Thomas, to visit Gurney, who had greatly admired
Thomas’s work. "...we were met by a tall gaunt dishevelled man...to
whom Miss Scott introduced me. He gazed with an intense stare into my
face and took me silently by the hand. Then I gave him the flowers which
he took with the same deeply moving intensity and silence. He then said:
‘You are Helen, Edward’s wife, and Edward is dead.’" Gurney remarked
on her pretty hat, "the gay colours gave him pleasure," she
wrote. "I sat by him on the bed and we talked of Edward and myself,
but I cannot now remember the conversation." Although Gurney did
make some delusional comments, Mrs. Thomas found that his "talk
was generally quite sane and lucid".(48) Had he been schizophrenic,
it is less likely he would have welcomed a visit from Helen Thomas or
that he would have understood or cared who she was. It is also unlikely
that he would have noticed what she was wearing and commented on it,
or that he would have been interested in carrying on a "lucid"
conversation.
Madness "occurs only in the extreme forms
of mania and depression; most people who have manic-depressive illness
never become psychotic," according to Dr. Jamison. "Those
who do lose their reason — are deluded, hallucinate, or act in particularly
strange and bizarre ways — are irrational for limited periods of time
only, and are otherwise well able to think clearly and act rationally".(49)
Gurney proved that both his reason and his memory
were intact when Helen Thomas brought Edward’s old ordnance survey maps
with her on another visit. He eagerly spread them out on his bed and
"spent an hour re-visiting his beloved home, in spotting a village
or a track...and seeing it all in his mind’s eye, a mental vision sharper
and more actual for his heightened intensity".(50)
He continued to have periods of lucidity right
up to the end although they became fewer and of shorter duration. During
these periods, he was aware of his surroundings, the life going on around
him and his own feelings.
In late November 1937, just a month before Gurney
died, Marion Scott gave him proof copies of the special issue of Music
and Letters devoted to him. She told him about the forthcoming
publication of two volumes of his songs by Oxford University Press.
He was lucid enough to respond: "It is too late." A month
later on December 26, as dawn began to lighten the winter sky outside
the City of London Mental Hospital, Ivor Gurney died, ending his long
struggle with manic-depressive illness.
Gone out every bright thing from my mind.
All lost that ever God himself designed.
- Ivor Gurney
from "To God",
an asylum poem
©Pamela Blevins 2000
Footnotes
1. "What’s in Time" from
the Collected Poems of Ivor Gurney, edited by P. J. Kavanagh,
Oxford University Press, 1984, p. 246
2. Marion Scott, The Monthly Musical
Record, February, 1938, p.43
3. Bi-polar is the preferred medical
term, however, for the purposes of this article, I will use manic-depressive
illness because it is more expressive description of Gurney’s behaviour
4. Michael Hurd, The Ordeal of
Ivor Gurney, Oxford University Press, 1978, pp. 197-198
5. William Trethowan, "Ivor Gurney’s
Mental Illness", Music and Letters, July/October 1981, pp.
300-309. In the research into Gurney’s mental illness which resulted
in the incorrect "paranoid schizophrenia" diagnosis, Trethowan
and others focussed only on his condition during the asylum years. They
failed to track the course of his illness from his teens. Had they done
so, they would have seen a clear pattern of manic-depressive behavior
and symptoms. Gurney was NEVER label schizophrenic in his lifetime.
He was, however, diagnosed as manic depressive by the army, a fact that
has been ignored for years.
6. Trethowan, ibid
7. Kay Redfield Jamison, Touched
with Fire: Manic-Depressive Illness and the Artistic Temperament,
Free Press (Macmillan) 1994, p.59
8. Jamison, ibid, pp59-60
9. Jamison, ibid, p. 13
10. Jamison, ibid, p.13
11. Hurd, ibid, p. 128
12. Margaret Hunt letter to Marion
Scott, May 8, 1917, Gurney Archive, Gloucester
13. Gurney’s friends and aquaintances
ranged from the lock keeper, Mr. Harris and his family at Framilode
in Gloucestershire to Will Harvey, Herbert Howells, Sydney Shimmin,
John Haines, Arthur Benjamin, the Chapman family, Marion Scott and members
of her family, Ethel Voynich and members of her family, which included
the scientist Geoffrey Taylor, the Reverend T. Ratcliffe Barnett, Annie
Drummond, Margaret and Emily Hunt, Alfred Cheesman; fellow soldiers
including Basil Cridland, Private T. Evans, Fred Bennett. He was at
ease meeting or corresponding with the literary and musical luminaries
of his time, including A.E. Housman, Walter de la Mare, John Masefield,
Eddie Marsh, Edward Shanks, Harold Monro, Scott Montcrieff, Edmund Blunden,
Gervase Elwes, Steuart Wilson, Wilfrid Gibson and others.
14. Winifred Gurney letter to Don Ray,
Gurney Archive,
15. Ronald Gurney letter to Don Ray,
Gurney Archive
16. Winifred Gurney, Gurney Archive
17. Marion Margaret Scott (1877-1953),
violinist, critic, lecturer, editor, writer, biographer of Beethoven,
international authority on Haydn. Gifted, dynamic, youthful appearing
and possessing poetic beauty, Scott enjoyed the company of younger men
and was always eager to help them advance their careers. Although she
was 13 years older than Gurney and came from a wealthy and socially
prominent family, Scott, who was half American, did not stand on convention
when she fell in love with Gurney. It is likely that he became infatuated
with her and used his achievements as a way to impress her and gain
her attention. Their friendship began in 1911 at the Royal College of
Music but developed into more on Scott’s part, particularly during the
war when she and Gurney exchanged hundreds of letters and developed
a special bond of understanding. Gurney was undoubtedly aware of her
feelings towards him because he made every effort to conceal his relationship
with Annie Drummond from Scott. He feared losing her friendship if she
found out. Once Gurney was in the asylum, she never stopped loving him,
but did have relationships with other men. Scott had left her personal
journal among Gurney’s papers which she had willed to composer Gerald
Finzi, a champion of Gurney. One of her entries is a poem that could
only have been written for Gurney: "In time to come when we have
done with time...we two will climb/Some sunny height of air, you chanting
rhyme,/And well contented songs, innocent as a boy,/I by your side quite
silent in pure joy". Her journal is in the Gurney Archive.
18. Marion Scott notes, Royal College
of Music, London
19. Florence Gurney letter to Marion
Scott, August 22, 1927
20. Winifred Gurney to Don Ray, Gurney
Archive
21. Jamison, ibid, p. 194
22. Trethowan, ibid, p. 308
23. Alfred Cheesman (1864-1941), born
in Bosham, educated at Worcester College, Oxford, curate of All Saints
Church Gloucester from 1888-1912, vicar of Twigworth from 1912 until
his death. Honorary Canon of Gloucester from 1925.
24. Another version of the story claims
the Ivor Gurney shot himself in the hand
25. According to Don Ray in his Ivor
Gurney His Life and Work, (MA dissertation, California State University
at Long Beach, 1980, when Gurney transferred to the Cathedral Choir
in 1900, it was "with the provision that he have his teeth fixed:
an overbite was effecting his speech".
26. Herbert Howells, manuscript on
Ivor Gurney, reprinted in Herbert Howells A Centenary Celebration
by Christopher Palmer, Thames Publishing, 1992
27. Ivor Gurney letter to Marion Scott,
summer 1913, The Collected Letters of Ivor Gurney, edited by
R.K.R. Thorton, MidNAG & Carcanet, 1991, p. 3
28. Ivor Gurney to Will Harvey, early
1914, Collected Letters, p. 10
29. Severn and Somme, published
November 1917, Sidgwick & Jackson
30. Annie Nelson Drummond (1887-1959)
born at Armadale, West Lothian Scotland. Emigrated to Massachusetts
in 1921, married James L. McKay, on September 4, 1922, shortly before
Gurney was committed to Barnwood House. The McKays had two children,
a son, who died at the age of 8 in an accident, and a daughter, who
is a photographer
31. Marion Scott letter to Don Ray,
Gurney Archive
32. Jamison, ibid, pp. 131 and 136
33. Gurney hinted in a letter to Ethel
Voynich in February 1915 that he contemplated suicide in 1913. "It
is indeed a better way to die...than the end which seemed near me and
was so desirable only just over two years ago". The Collected Letters,
p. 14
34. Ministry of Pensions document,
Gurney Archive
35. Gurney asylum letter of appeal,
quoted in Hurd, p. 3
36. Gurney was also struggling with
his sexuality at the time he became involved with Annie Drummond. It
is possible that he viewed his affair with Drummond as an attempt to
have a normal relationship with a woman to prove to himself that he
was not homosexual. When it failed he was devastated. It is possible,
too, that he suffered sexual abuse in his teens. Gurney’s friend Arthur
Benjamin, himself a homosexual, believed that Gurney was also homosexual.
In 1922 he wrote frankly to Marion Scott telling her: "I think
that psycho-analysis is the only cure for him; but that, of course,
would mean entire confidence on Ivor’s part, which is doubtful...I used
to know a good deal about Ivor and on that knowledge — the details of
which it is impossible for me to discuss with you — I think that psycho-analysis
is the only chance." Benjamin was Gurney’s confidant at the Royal
College of Music.
37. Scott, ibid
38. War’s Embers was Gurney
second volume of poetry. It was published by Sidgwick and Jackson in
May 1919
39. Margaret Hunt was the younger of
two sisters who, at the suggestion of Alfred Cheesman, befriended Gurney
when he was 15. Both had been teachers in South Africa and had settled
in Gloucester around 1907. Margaret was 15 years older than Gurney and
encouraged his passions for music and nature. He became infatuated with
her. Later in life, he acknowledged her as his muse. "My work was
meant for her," he wrote. He came to believe that he had failed
Margaret by not fulfilling his early promise to become the great man
that she believed he was destined to be.
40. Prior to the war, Lord Derby’s
War Hospital in Warrington had been an insane asylum. Gurney’s friend
John Haines described Warrington as "the most detestable place
I have ever spent six hours in, without exception, and the place would
drive me mad, despite my lack of genius." Gurney attempted suicide
while at Warrington. Marion Scott got him transferred to the Middlesex
War Hospital at St. Albans. It is likely that Gurney was terrified by
what he saw at Warrington, where shell-shock victims were forced to
endure faridisation, or electrical charges applied to their bodies in
a barbaric effort to "cure" them. There is no evidence that
Gurney endured faridisation. But he might have seen what his own fate
would be if he was committed to an asylum.
41. Marion Scott personally paid £26
per quarter towards Gurney’s support in the asylum.
42. It is possible that Gurney’s doctors
thought that syphilis was contributing to his mental problems although
they do not say so in his medical records. The note to Marion Scott,
written by the Medical Superintendent at the asylum, informing her that
the Malaria treatments had been approved by Ronald Gurney, is vague.
It simply states that the doctors were "very anxious to try the
effect of inoculating" Gurney with a "mild form of Malaria
which can easily be stopped". The note does not explain why they
were injecting him with malaria. No medical data are available on Gurney
prior to his hospitalization at the City of London Mental Hospital so
it is not possible to know if he did indeed suffer early and secondary
symptoms of syphilis such as lesions, enlarged glands, skin rash and
aches and pains in the bones. Once the secondary symptoms subside, the
disease can become latent and remain so for as long as 20 or 30 years.
In the asylum Gurney did have some symptoms of syphilis -- headaches,
pain in his bones or muscles, sores in his mouth, loss of appetite and
possibly a rash on his legs and feet -- but it is not possible to state
that these symptoms were a direct result of syphilis. In 1925, doctors
diagnosed one of Gurney’s physical problems as "evidently a scurvy",
which resulted in his teeth becoming "quite loose". He eventually
had six pulled. Scurvy and syphilis both produce mouth sores and aches
and pains in the joints or more specifically in the bones in the case
of syphilis and in the joints in the case of scurvy -- distinctions
that might not be clear to a patient in pain. Gurney complained of pains
in his legs and back and was eventually treated with "light infra-red"
for what was described as "muscular rheumatism". It is extremely
difficult to assess Gurney’s physical condition because from 1926 on,
he steadfastly refused to allow a doctor to examine him. Siegfried Sassoon,
a contemporary of Gurney, had an aunt and uncle who suffered from syphilis.
When Sassoon described their lives and behaviour to a doctor friend,
the doctor advised him to stop using the words "raving" and
"dementia" in reference to them cautioning him that these
behaviours were regarded "as possibly the most tell-tale indications
of syphilis". Although Gurney was not demented by our modern standards,
he might have been regarded as such in the early 1920s when another
aspect of his behaviour might be interpreted as "raving".
When William Trethowan deposited Gurney’s medical records in the Gurney
Archive, he apparently felt that there was something embarrassing or
damaging in them because he stipulated that access to them be restricted
until the year 2037, one hundred years after Gurney’s death.
43. Edmund Blunden, introduction to
Poems of Ivor Gurney, Chatto & Windus, 1973, pp.22/23
44. Hurd, ibid, p. 208
45. Emil Kraepelin, Manic-Depressive
Insanity and Paranoia, first published in Edinburgh by E&S Livingston
in 1921; reprinted by the Arno Press of New York in 1976
46. Eugen Bleuler, Textbook of Psychiatry,
English edition, A. A. Brill, Macmillan, 1924
47. Jamison, ibid, p. 107
48. Helen Thomas’ account of her visit
with Gurney appears in her memoir Under Storms Wing published by Carcanet
in 1988.
49. Jamison, ibid, p. 96
50. Thomas, ibid
Medical Consultants
Dr. Joseph Corbo, Virginia
The late Dr. Harald Johnson, California
and Massachusetts
Phyllis Sullivan, R.N., C.S. (Clinical
Specialist in Adult Mental Health), Virginia
Karen Wheelock, MSW, Massachusetts
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